Forever?

Leaning my back into a blue spruce trunk feels so calming and secure as I look at falling snow on a day in May covering branches of evergreens and new green leaves of Aspen. It’s time to turn off the noise, time to turn off the thinking and decision making, and just be, like this tree. I wonder about forever. I know times like this always end, and every day ends in night and every night ends in light, and even the source of that light, the Sun, will end. It seems to me that forever is in the now, and life is forever lived in the now, until the now is no more. Now is all I will ever have, and yet even that I can’t hold onto, it passes with each moment into the next now, and on and on until I look back and realize that, that now is in the past, and the now I’m in now, was what was the future, but only for now, as it too becomes the past, that is forever, if time is not infinite. Then I step away from the comfort of this tree, of this moment and walk on, ever looking for the next tree to lean back into, along this trail I follow now, that like all trails, ever leads to forever.